Desperate and Horny – Distance Control Journal – by Slave Taquin

As another week passed for Slave Taquin who has now been under my control for so long on a daily basis, I forget how long it has been.  Though so help him if he has lost count. The following write up from my Slave shows just how deep into submission I am able to take an individual.  There really isn’t any way out for him now and as time goes by, that hole he now lives in gets deeper and deeper!  The clips he was made to watch are available to purchase on my clips4sale website.

I am going to find it really difficult to find the words in this blog to do justice to what this week has been like for me. It all started with a visit to my PC to find Mistress starting to leave me a message on my screen. Before I could read it the screen went black and I was left to stare at it wondering what lay ahead for me. A couple of minutes later my screen came back to life and the TeamViewer ‘goodbye’ notice told me that Mistress had completed what she wanted to do and had gone to torment her other lucky slaves. I read the message that Mistress had left. She had thanked me for my blog and had set out my task for the day. I was to watch a video where a beautiful Mistress has her slave tied up in his own home and is giving him a handjob. The deal is that if he cums he will be left tied and covered in his own cum for his wife to find when she gets home. I was to watch the video 3 times throughout the day with the last occasion being just before bed time. I was already pretty horny from having submitted my blog earlier that day (blog submission is often a bit of a ‘confessional’ for me) and so having to watch this video just built me up even further. Sunday night was a difficult one, with Mistress’s property held tightly in its cage. Despite this, or probably because of this, I woke on Monday morning feeling wonderfully tormented and ready for the week ahead.

During Monday I rediscovered the feeling of being so horny and tormented that I really wasn’t sure if I was in heaven or hell. I do love the feeling of being desperate to cum but being prevented by Mistress, but sometimes it does become unbearable. Today was one of those days. It wasn’t even due to any particular task set by Mistress (although the events of the last session were still firmly in my mind). Mondays torments were actually self inflicted. It was a simple as this….

I had recently purchased some Bluetooth headphones that enabled me to listen to music in my workshop without needing to carry my phone with me the whole time. I also recently improved the Wi-Fi coverage in my workshop in order that I could move my pc to a more private part of it if necessary. My discovery on Monday was that this would allow me to listen to fun video’s whilst working, without the fear of someone walking into my workshop and hearing what was being played. And that is what I did for a large part of the day. Many videos really do need to be watched to be enjoyed but I chanced upon some videos of Dommes blackmailing their subs. These are much more about hearing the words of the Domme rather than watching events unfold. As time went by I just got myself more and more worked up. As each one came to an end I thought ‘just one more and then I will stop’. Needless to say that this went on for some time.

Later on the  Monday Mistress asked whether or not I was on Fetlife? When I replied that I was Mistress just replied that this was ‘good to know’. When I inquired why Mistress said that she was ‘concocting plans’. In actual fact I had joined Fetlife some years ago but had never created a personal profile or actively used it in any way. I went to bed horny from the days activities and wondering what plans Mistress was concocting for me.

Tuesday eventually dawned and I sent my morning text to Mistress. Her instructions for me that day were for me to write a Fetlife profile ‘based on your journey and current situation’. My first thought was that this should be pretty straightforward. I did not fully appreciate at the time the impact that it was likely to have on me (I bet Mistress did however!). In writing it I was forced me to remember and document how I came to be sat here today as I am, locked in Chastity and dribbling pre-cum having had all control stripped away from me. My Fetlife profile now reads as follows:

My name is Slave Taquin and I am a submissive man living in Somerset.

I have always known that I am sexually submissive but have only started to explore and understand this in recent years. For some time I indulged my fantasies by enjoying tie and tease sessions with a lovely Domme based in the south east. My circumstances changed however and I had my first session with Miss Deelight  in 2014. This was the day that my life changed. Over the last 18 months Mistress has developed, led, groomed and shaped me into the loyal slave that I am today.

In reality there is no escape for me now. Mistress has locked me into a chastity device that will only be removed when I am with her. Mistress has taken control of my PC by using TeamViewer and has access to my vanilla as well as my slave life. I can only ever have an orgasm if Mistress provides it. I have committed financially and emotionally to Miss Deelight until at least January 2017.

My days between sessions with Mistress are spent longing for her to contact me whilst knowing that any contact will result in me feeling more desperately horny than I was before.

In summary I am trapped in a spiral of submission by a gorgeous and powerful woman. Mistress will not allow me to deviate from this and will punish me severely should I ever try. I would not want it any other way.

To be made to write this and to publish it just reminded me of my place and of my total submission to Mistress. By the time I had written it and had received Mistresses approval I was a mess. The only other thing that Mistress instructed me to do that day was to change my Fetlife profile name to SlaveTaquin. I did as instructed and confirmed all of the changes on Fetlife for the whole of the fetish world to see.

The following day Mistress instructed me to find two Fetlife groups that looked suitable for me to join. One was to be on the subject of Chastity and the other was to be about TeamViewer domination. I was to report back to Mistress with my recommendations but was not to actually join without her approval.

I found it relatively easy to find a good chastity group but TeamViewer proved much more difficult. So many of the TeamViewer groups that I could find were overrun by people claiming to have their pc’s ready to be taken over in order that they could be blackmailed, ruined and robbed. Just to make it easy for anyone who wished to take all that they owned they had published their TeamViewer ID’s and Passwords! It really doesn’t work like this in my experience. In the end I became so frustrated by it that, with Mistresses approval, I set up a new group called ‘TeamViewer for genuine subs and their Dommes. ID & PW forbidden!’ If you wish to take a look, and hopefully join, you can do a search for a group called ‘TeamViewer for genuine’ and you will be directed to it. I hope that, if enough people join, it can be used for the exchange of ideas and information that will be interesting to us slaves and useful to Mistresses such as Miss Deelight.

Of course all of this work on Fetlife had the effect of winding me up further still. I also realise that it has pushed me further into a life of submission. Even 6 months ago I wouldn’t have considered being an active Fetlife participant let alone setting up and hosting a group.

Friday started quietly enough. It wasn’t until I checked my e mails later in the day that I realised that Mistress had ensured that my week finished in torment and turmoil. Mistress had sent me two videos with instructions to watch them both, and to remain locked in chastity whilst doing so. Both were of Mistress. The first was a tease and denial jerk off instruction video and the second was a video from last year where Mistress had finally released me from 11 weeks of Chastity and edged me mercilessly before allowing me an orgasm. I recognise that this was incredibly generous of Mistress to send these to me. She really is such a kind Mistress, but she is also incredibly wicked! I watched both videos and as I did so I sunk deeper and deeper into a submissive, horny, tortured trance. By the end of it I sent Mistress the frankly ridiculous question ‘please can I be released from my device and have an orgasm tonight’. 5 minutes later I panicked and sent a hasty follow up apologising for asking. She read both but didn’t respond.  Just before I went to bed I received my final message from Mistress. It was a photograph of her looking gorgeous, and oh so powerful, giving me a simple message with a single raised finger. It is probably the sexiest picture and message that I have ever received. I had been put firmly in my place and I went to bed straining in my device. I stayed that way all night and all of the following day (particularly as I listened to both videos several times whilst working in my workshop).

I am so horny, so submissive and so lucky.


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